Not Like the Movies

This song is from Katy Perry's new album. I wish I could sit down and chat with her, she fascinates me as she comes from a strong Christian background but seems to have gone a different direction with her life.

I think I understand her heart behind this song but I have to admit I find it frustrating. I sympathize with that deep longing for "that fairy-tale feeling." I still fight doubts and fears about why my love doesn't look like the one I imagined as a kid. The reality is that for a lot of people, love doesn't resemble what we see the movies. And that's probably actually a good thing.

I don't know if Katy Perry wrote the song from a "teenage dream" perspective or the one she views the world from now. I wonder if she feels that Russell Brand was "made perfectly" for her, and the fulfillment of her childhood dreams. Part of me hopes she does, and that he is, and its for real. But the jaded part of me wonders how long it will take them to follow the traditional Hollywood whirlwind romance path and end up divorced.

"Where I Stood."

Every time I've heard this song come up on my Pandora, I've recognized my heart in Missy Higgins' words. Add another to the soundtrack to my life...


I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
A little voice is whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found my self listening

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cause she will love you more then I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you aren't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cause she will love you more then I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me then any one I've ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so I say to you, this is what I have to do

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cause she will love you more then I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
She who dares to stand where I stood